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Hello. My name is Michael Cazon.
I was asked to share my experiences and I feel that this is most important in recovery. If they gave out diplomas for 22 years of Drug/Alcohol abuse, I'd have a PhD in addictions.
I used to feel ashamed of myself and I never thought that I would be writing for the papers. But then I realized that in order for me to stay sober, I have to share what I lived and hope that it helps someone else from going down the destructive road of addictions.
I had to learn the hard way that alcohol and drugs were more powerful than me and that I needed help. It cost me -- losing a girlfriend and two children in a house fire.
This had to be the lowest point in my life. This has left me permanently scarred, emotionally and physically. At that time I did not want to live.
This is very hard to write about, I can feel my heart and let go through tears and yes, it's okay to cry.
At first I was really angry at the doctors and fire crew that saved my life. I thought to myself, why did they have to interfere? They should of just let me die. But as more and more people, crossed my path and helped me to start my healing journey, I came to realize that it was the Creator's work. Through these people who spared my life.
Little did I know what was in store for me. There were many significant people who helped me to get to where I am today and you know who you are. Mahsi Cho, from the bottom of my heart. I couldn't of done it without you. It seemed to me that people kept popping into my life, right when I was down and out.
For example I experienced a healing workshop with people from all over Canada. That was the first time I realized that people from all walks of life needed to go through a grieving process.
I sure could have used a drink when feelings started coming up! This was the first time I was finally able to feel and express what was bottled up inside for many years. This allowed me to start sharing and reaching out to others for support.
The real turning point away from alcohol and drugs was when I met my partner of today who was also on the healing path. We now have two beautiful girls and are working towards fulfilling our hopes and dreams.
What has kept me from going back to my old ways is the gift of the drum which was introduced to me in the treatment centre by my room mate. To me the drum connects my heart to my ancestors and makes me feel good about who I am.
It has become my personal vision to see the youth of today stay connected to our culture and embrace its values and be proud of who they are. So that they will have less chance of making the same mistakes I've made because they will know who they are.
I used to take my culture for granted, but today I am very thankful, because culture has taught me how to live, in harmony with myself, others and the land.
Above all it has taught me the true meaning of respect, gratitude, responsibility and sharing.
